This will make almost no sense at all to anyone.
For the most part, it's not supposed to.
For some asking why though, it's hopefully an answer.
I'm surrendering my silence to the questions, despite the fact that I do not expect anyone to actually understand my perspective. It won't be the first time that I've seen things differently than others on this great big flying rock! I don't expect it will be the last either! The choice to see my take on things or go another route, has always been a decision that anyone can make for themselves. I would not only never want to change that, but I admire us so very much as humans, for just that very ability.
Although I'm not what you would call a "pure" Trekkie, I always saw the tolerance, peace and faith in mankind message, that Eugene was trying to put out there. And an admirable attempt it was too!
But there is that one line! The one that shall always remain true, no matter the circumstance or situation it manages to arise in.
"The good of the many outweighs the good of the few, or the one."
In my opinion when you are making almost any decision, this should pretty much factor into your prime directive at the time. Will your actions affect more than just your own environment? Will anything else change, because of what you do? Will the change be for the betterment of you the one, or will the change somehow benefit more, as in the many?
While my decision to stand back and out of the way may seem stupid and trivial to some, it can also be considered the smartest approach to a tough situation to others. I think it's clear that our perspective on the situation, can be affected by our hearts first. Leading our minds to consider no other options, no matter the who, what, where, when or why of the situation at hand. We're really a strange breed in that respect. Natural instinct is often replaced by emotions such as anger, love, acceptance, optimism and of course, contentment and contempt.
Taking emotion out of a decision is not just difficult, it's damn near impossible! But it's not totally impossible and that's the difference here. I feel I was able to put aside feelings and judge the situation for what it actually was, and that's bad! Not the ability silly! The situation.
No matter what we try to do, the facts will always remain the same. Oil & Vinegar will just never really mix all that well. Sure it looks good as a balsamic blend or immediately after a good shake, but eventually we all know what's going to happen don't we? It's going to break down and become two distinct and separate entities. Not through any fault of the oil or the vinegar of course, but from us trying to force the two diametrically opposed ingredients together, over and over again.
What I become in certain situations, is simply not me. At least, not the me I want you to be around. Definitely, not the me that I want to be!
So the argument I have to constantly have with myself is quite clear. Do I wish to continue to show you that side of me, all the while being miserable myself? Or is it simply better for the one and the many, to have the one decide to stay clear of the situation?
Listen, I don't like being miserable and since you know me so well, it has to say something to know that I'm less miserable without the joy of your constant companionship, than I am being the guy in that situation.
If it doesn't....... then the point is lost on you, and I can't really do anything about that unfortunately.
My sincerest thanks for dropping by....