Sowing the seeds of hope....

Perhaps starting this past decade off with the threat of worldwide electronic failure, was just the right way to go. I mean, it totally makes sense now that we look back at these past 10 years that just flew right by us no?

Starting with all of the clocks in the world hitting 00:00 00 and probably bringing everything we know to a crashing halt, then finishing with the completely senseless deaths of the 135th - 138th Canadian Soldiers in Afghanistan, the 'ought' decade has been the least favorite of the ones this kid has managed to live through. In fact rather than lived through, I actually feel more like I survived 2000 to 2009. Maybe I should've gotten a tee-shirt deal going or something?

I think 9/11 then set the remainder of the tone, for this decade of loss and meaningless tragedy.

During this decade, my Father made the call that sent my world on life tilt. An instant before he said the word, my mind had already processed the meaning of Cancer to my Dad. But as a glimmer of hope shone through not only did my Father survive Cancer, he kicked the damming diseases ass! Hope had again been sown and for this kids family, we were intent on reaping our rewards.

Our struggles with Peb's Father Fred and the Cancerous creatures within him, have stretched out to two full years through this decade. It's only now with the clocks again about to change over into a new decade, that we potentially see a small and glimmering light near what looks to us, like the end of the tunnel. The seeds of hope are once again, firmly sown within the soil of our lives.

"Corporate espionage" reared it's ugly head as well, through this 'ought' decade. All the while cleverly disguising the true situation at hand. A back-stabbing and self promotional asshole, that was terminated just a short year after having me removed from my position within the organization. But being the conglomerate that is corporate Bedrock, they can't and won't admit to their failure at the time. Time passes and with that, the moment that was must have never actually been. The seed of hope couldn't be sown in this situation but rest assured, knowing that I was right and just at the time is a small comfort I do take to heart from this debacle.

With head up and heart full, I brought out benevolent Bam-Bam. His mission, to fight the good fight and bring a struggling organization to the forefront within it's industry. A much smaller company for certain, but one with the promise of gold at the end of the rainbow. Forgive me for channelling my inner Yoda but struggle on I did, make profit did they. As apparently is want to happen in these economically challenging times and a smaller family based operation, the profit is all gone and now.... so am I. The owners two new vehicles, new home and cottage by the lake and all of the memories he may store from dozens of trips across the globe, all that remain of my efforts over this past decade. I'd sown the seeds alright, only to watch his reaping damn near destroy the company.

And so I sit here at the end of a decade, I honestly can't wait to see go. Forgive me the half empty glass view of the 'ought' decade and what it's really meant to me, for there are still other difficulties too delicate to place in print across these pages. Things that my life as an open book, will just have to keep to itself.

All is not tragic though! I can maintain my half full glass going into the next decade, with just a few simple thoughts to keep me sane and satisfied.

The love of my life and the best thing that has ever happened to me, my Peb's is still by my side. For that I am eternally grateful. With each rise of the sun finding her by my side, I grow a love stronger than one could ever dream imaginable or real. But it is real and it really is happening to me. I shall always love you Peb's, with ALL that I am!

Along the way through these last few years, I've also sown a few seeds of hope going forward. Through you, my mostly invisible but occasionally huggable and touchable friends of Bedrock. I'm afraid that I'm not clever enough of a writer to properly put the words together to express my feelings for the friendships we've developed along the way but hopefully, they are conveyed in person when ever we do get together.

Friends and loved ones give me hope going into this next decade, hope that we'll all manage to enjoy and be prosperous throughout it. Hope that each one of us can sow the many seeds of love, joy and happiness as we go. Putting the bad behind and planning for nothing but good as we move along our chosen paths. May those paths bring me to you or you to me, as often as humanly possible. I hope that together, we can all reap the seeds of hope that we have sown in our friendships.

Happy New Year Bedrock! All the best to you and yours for this new year and hopefully, the entire decade to come.

My sincerest thanks for dropping by....